So pinup is my passion now. I am loving every minute of this. Yes I've felt objectified. They wouldn't get it if i tried so I didn't bother. It hurt. Badly. They probably could care less but they'll no longer have airtime in my life. No longer in my orbit. Not worthy of my care and affection. You live and learn what friendship looks like and you dust yourself off. You move on and do what you love always. In the end i was a "bargaining chip". That felt amazing. As in a real piece of shit. Thanks. So goodbye and enjoy your life. One of these pics is just for you. Guess which one.
To clarify for the masses and not specificity there is a difference between support and feeling like an object. Body image and shame for my self have been a constant companion to me. I wasn't looked at with eyes of adoration or attractiveness. I didn't fit the mold of the masses. That's been a struggle all my life and will always be. To have feedback is always welcome but when it feels like you become a prop or a paper doll to outfit then it becomes a problem. I'm taking back my power in all this and that feeling is one I've never felt before. It hurt. I was no longer a friend or a peer but a play thing. It's hard to express this in the thick of things especially when parties are haughty in their need to be right or unchallenged. Own your shit.
It's hard enough to be a woman in this world...in my various fields. I'm in a male dominated field as well as for some a sexually charged one. I'm somewhere in the middle of it all. Understand what it means to look beyond a mirror everyone and put yourself in the shoes of someone else. You're always more than your form or your outside.
Moving on...i got my Glamory stockings and omg they are incredible!! I need more of these!!! They're more generous to a fuller thigh and i am in love!! Wore my Orphan Black Torrid set because it's sweet but oh so edgy and cute. Pink embroidery and peter pan collar ftw❤! I was lucky to find both pieces and soon they'll be loose but I'm altering this puppy LOL. Got some Steve Madden Red Suede heels!!! 5inches and up oh yeah!!! Paired all this with my Rago shapewear beauty and boom instant redhead goddess!!-πππ π☺☺☺
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