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Sooooo besides pinup I'm back to art full time peeps!!! The book will happen this year albeit a little transformed in the best ways possible. There will also be poetry and a special excerpt short story for my best friend Merr. This is my big idea. It needed to be absolutely perfect. This year it will be. It's me on paper. Ink. Watercolor. Ballpoint. The whole nine yards. Butttt I'm also making time for my pinup as visible from our totally odd 70 degree day yesterday in the park lol. Lack of poses be damned!!! Everwhere but the plate i was on was mud and you want me to ruin 6in glitter Bordello heels?! Hell no lol. I dressed up my rock steady top with the short shorts and a cap America baseball jersey. Cute right?! I'm also a tad worried as i write this...as you know this is also my weight loss journey....with that said with some stress over the last month i lost more weight blah. Thus my fits aren't fitting! Damn it lol. Soo gonna be selling some pieces soon to get more stuff. Yay?! Nah it's seriously not just a physical transformation it's a mental one too. One day you're you and then kabam your inbox is full. It's all a mind screw. For sure. I'm working on the emotions of this and everything else thus keeping really busy. A bright light has been the absolute beauty of glamoryhosiery on Instagram and their support of me. Do i mention i cry every single time...to be among such beauties and featured among them. Surreal to be sure but always an absolute honor. Well there is a pic of makeup here isn't there lol. My amazing friend Kris hooked me up!! Two too faced palettes and an urban decay along with stila and Anastasia. Oh my!!!!❤❤❤ things will get better....i know it. I have people looking after me and to keep absolutely smitten with my progress. So folks go out and do something you're afraid of, close your eyes and push thst door open and let the sunlight hit your face (or hale but oh god be careful lol ). Believe in yourself moment to moment. We're all works in progress. I'm on your team, you be on mine. Got it? Good. ❤
Ok so here it goes. It was some weekend. Good and bad. I have to put this out there. I know i can't make you see my content like i see it. I know viewers take and understand material in different ways...with that said this is my journey. I DO want your attention but i can't force it on you for my reasons. I'm overcoming things. Trying to fight fear and grow from it. Heck just this year I've done things I've never done before. This is huge for me. I've been a victim of many things but never tag me as that. I'm a survivor and eventually a conqueror. Consume my content as you will but know i own my journey. I'm not an object to adorn with things. I'm me. A dorky chick pushing her boundaries after a beaten down kind of life. Recently I've felt objectified by literally someone i gave all my care for. I'm a survivor of sexual traumas of things. This journey is huge for me. It means I'm overcoming pain in ways. I can...
SO THIS IS HUGE!!! I GOT A SPONSORED MODELING GIG!!! So today i got the blessing of a lifetime peeps! Posted the pics i shared yesterday on Instagram anddddd today boom!!! I tagged #glamoryhosiery for my amazing thigh highs and They liked it. End story right??!! Nope. They then featured me on their page as a model with their product....and then....they inboxed me!!! They talked to me for 20 mins and now I'm waiting on all their products to feature in my pinup!!!! Dudes for a bullied redhead who came from almost being hurt in school for her appearance this was huge. I felt beautiful. I felt like a goddess. I felt not ugly today....i felt beautiful. Absolutely beautiful. To be an ugly duckling to being actually considered a model worthy of featured status with others I'm a fan of blew my mind. I cried. I squealed. I scared the cat badly. Here's the deal. This is not about accolades for being prettier than before...this is a journey. You guys...
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